It was a week ago yesterday, at 12 weeks that I learned my pregnancy hadn’t survived beyond 7-8 weeks.  My womb had cruelly continued to grow as though I was still pregnant but the embryo inside had died.  The first I learned that all was not ok was through brown discharge, turning to pink, turning … Read more

I’m spotting, brown discharge. My midwife reassures me.  I am reassured.  This could be normal.  Yes – I know it can be.  Cling on to that hope. I’m spotting pink discharge. My midwife reassures me.  Only fresh red blood should be a concern.  Cling on to that hope. I’m spotting fresh red blood, EPU ask … Read more

“Maybe you should just say its ladies problems”? Except it isnt -just a ladies problem. Its grief, raw grief, pain……… I have a dead baby inside me I didn’t put it in there alone so how is it just my problem? Or Ladies Problems?   “I dont think they need to know right now………” Is … Read more

I imagined you I dreamed of you I’d thought of names I liked for you. I included you in all our future dreams. We thought about where you would sleep, where your bedroom would eventually be, your siblings and their relationship with you. The complexities of our blended family, life and where you might fit … Read more